I PRAY FOR HIM

I thought about him again this morning and prayed. I asked God to bless him with a good day, for him to be safe, to focus where he should.  I asked that God put thoughts of me in his head, so that he would pray for me too. I already love him, this man I will marry. I love the person he is and the one he is constantly becoming.

I don’t live in the world of fantasy, I live in reality. I know there will be fights over really stupid things, and differences we will have to deal with, struggles that come along.

That being said.. I am a romantic. I’ve never truly been “in love.” I have had quite a few crushes, but I’ve been waiting for the right one to come along (so far, he hasn’t). I am convinced no obstacle will keep us apart, whether that be distance or other life circumstances. Why do I know these things? Because my God wants to give me the desires of my heart and my desire is to be married, and create a complete family. God knows this. He knows the deepest longing in my heart. Thankfully I am not willing to settle, not willing to just let any guy into my life and the life of my little guy. That guy I won't settle for would not be the right one for us.

I pray for him though. Whenever he crosses my mind during the day. I wonder what he is doing at that moment. I wonder if he is struggling and wish I could support him through it. I wonder if he is traveling, and wish I could be there with him to explore new places. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to come home at the end of the day to this man and be able to tell him the things I wish I could talk about, but that no one else would understand. This man will.. and if he doesn't, at least he will pretend well :)

These things may sound silly to some of you who have been through struggles in relationships, but they do not to me. I am excited to see where this road I am on leads, and what new things are in store. I'm not worried about tomorrow (for God is already there, right?) because it is all under control of the One who is greater than anything else in this world. And for now, HE is all I need. When I finally am with the man God created just for me, HE will sustain us through everything.

So for now, I. PRAY. For. Him.