Rollercoaster Life

This is one of those times I wish I had that cool little pointing finger... why this picture? Cause it seems to fit my life. UPs and DOWNs and TURN YOU UPSIDE DOWNs kind of life. 

I've got a confession to make. I'm not always the nicest person (especially on the inside).

I think bad thoughts about people - and sometimes my inside voice becomes my outside voice (and usually makes my coworker spit his coffee out because he's laughing at whatever I've said).  I don't like thinking bad thoughts about people, but my brain tells me sometimes they...just deserve it.

Sometimes I think I'm better than others. Other times I just don't want to be around people. And I find I get annoyed really quickly. Darn it... sometimes people are just rude and annoy the heck out of me!

I'm not saying these things to get the "I feel that way too" thing. I'm saying it because I don't really like how I can get and think it needs to change.

Four years ago, when I go back from Iraq, I was probably the strongest spiritually I have ever been as an adult. That lasted for a little over two years. Things happen. Feelings get hurt. Intentions are misunderstood. "Church" people start pointing fingers. So I stepped back. And at the same time, started stepping away from my relationship with Christ as well.

More things happen..and I get it figured out.

Found out some people just want to blame you because of WHO you are.

I survived... I thrived... and now, my life is far better for the valley I have (put myself into) gone through.

And now... now I recall somewhere in the Bible (not a scholar on this subject, folks) God tells us He is the one who will provide retribution for the wrongs done against His people. Granted, the context may be completely wrong, but at the same time, there are things I see that go on that make me believe this fully. I will most likely never know the way God set things right, but I do know He loves me.

He cares for me.. and sees to my every need.  Like tonight, I was feeling off kilter and needed that bit of reassurance, and found it just a few minutes after I asked Him for it. That reassurance was exactly what I needed to hear and it was in exactly the right moment.

God is AMAZING and comes through for us every single time.