Needs and Wants

I need to win the lottery so I can be a stay at home mom and home school my child like he wants. In all honesty, I would probably hire a tutor because I don’t imagine I have the patience needed to home school him…and I really, really suck at math. We would get to the stuff that has numbers and letters together and I would just look at him and be honest… “Unless you are going to be an engineer, you will NEVER use this stuff…so let’s skip it.” I’m sure he would be delighted.

I want to dance with the man I’m going to marry.. just gonna call him my husband. I love dancing – the kind that is classy, not the ‘shake your rear, dirty dancing’ stuff you see today. Two-step, waltz, cha cha, swing, ballroom. You name it, I love it. I want to dance with him to this particular song that I love right now..  And no, I’m not telling what it is, simply because I won’t.

I want land to build a house on, and put in a greenhouse so I can have fresh veggies year round.

I want horses to ride on my land.

I want to travel more often. I want to go back to Italy.

I need to be the mom my son deserves.

I feel a strong need to take care of someone, a family.

I want to grow old with my husband.

I want to cook for more than two people, one of whom complains regularly that he doesn’t like what I’ve made. Til I make him try it. Or I let him use some kind of condiment on it. (Mustard on green beans? Sure.. if you actually eat what I’ve slaved over to provide you with nourishment so you can grow into a larger person who will complain about and then eat more of what you don’t like).

I want my boy to grow up and be strong for the Lord, to lead his own household someday.

Most of all, I feel the deep desire to be loved for who I am. To be understood completely by someone who will listen to me rant then make me laugh because it really is ridiculous to be upset over __________.

Matthew 6:25-27  (NASB)

²⁵ “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? ²⁷ And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?

I am worth more than the birds of the air. God may not give me every little want and desire that I have, but He will provide exactly what I need.  And maybe even fulfill some of those ‘wants’ along the way.