Staying Focused

I find that if I lose my focus, I get all kinds of out of whack. The devil starts to get his claws into my mind, where I begin to think too much about what I don't have. If I start doing that, I start getting overly emotional.
 
Yes, I tend to let my emotions run amuck. I get sad and jealous, angry and hurt. I do not, however, live this way as a constant state of being. I am human after all, and female. So my emotional side gets me a lot more often. I just have to remain on guard and make every attempt to stay focused, and trust Jesus that the devil will not get too strong of a hold. The devil is pretty easy to get rid of, once focused. However, he is persistent and comes back often and quickly.

People mean well, but when they don’t know you all that well or see your everyday life, it is hard for them to not grab onto one thing and say that is a constant state of being. I want make clear to anyone who doesn’t understand or know or who has misunderstood something I have said…..

I am not sad or depressed because I am single.  I am happy to be able to live and do without having to “check with” someone else (even if I do want that at some point.)

I am not jealous of anyone who is married and has been that way. I just get tired of their attempts to placate me (Not all do this, but don’t tell me some silly saying because you are blissfully married and I am not).

I am not angry at or because of, my situation. I am generally happy because I have nothing to complain about…compared to the majority. I do want to do better at many things, but who doesn’t seek improvement in their life?

Psalm 119:14-16  (NASB)

¹⁴ I have rejoiced in the way of Your testimonies,
As much as in all riches.
¹⁵ I will meditate on Your precepts
And regard Your ways.
¹⁶ I shall delight in Your statutes;
I shall not forget Your word.

And so I shall continue on this road of singleness until my Jesus brings into my life that man I will marry. I will get overly emotional and may even cry sometimes about it, but I won’t dwell there. I will “pitch my fit” and move on, because that is what I do. And just because I want to talk about what is going on in my life doesn’t always mean I want advice. Sometimes I just want to vent. And for the doubters out there…. I. AM. OKAY.