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Friday, August 3, 2012

Bathroom Prayers

Do you ever have those moments at work  (or anywhere, really) where you feel like you are just going to emotionally explode and you make a run for the bathroom? Hopefully making it there before you burst into tears?
I do.
Had one today, actually. Just got overwhelmed and felt like I needed a few minutes alone (NEVER happens at work) and actually… wait for it… I got it. J
NO ONE came into the bathroom during the 15 minutes or so that I was in there. It HAD to be one of those moments God was calling me to Him. He “locked” the door for our meeting.
I talked to Him about how overwhelmed I felt in areas of my life. How I felt it was time for me to be important in someone’s life. Someone besides my child, that is. Cause I don’t feel important, to anyone. (Some people are going to take offense to this, but it is what it is).
I did not get an answer to all of my complaints, but I did to one. Probably the most overwhelming one in my life at the moment. I received comfort and the knowledge that I am not alone, and to have patience. Okay, so that wasn’t the answer I was looking for, but no clear answer means I need to stay where I’m at for the time being.  
My mind keeps poking at me with lies and deception, but I keep fighting (praying, discussing with trusted friends) it off. The deceiver never really stops doing what he is doing, which is attempting to turn us against our faith and what we are to believe. Even as I write this, my mind is being prodded with things that I must push back.
I think we all have days like this, where we must resist the desire to believe the lies that seem too easy to believe. I love the passage in James …submit to God, resist the devil, draw near to God… the rest seems to come a little easier after these things are done.

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