I’ve talked a lot about forgiveness lately. It is something I struggle with, especially where a couple of people are concerned.
One of these is someone who treated me terribly last year. This person lied to me repeatedly, manipulated me and convinced me of something that was just untrue. I’ve been working on forgiving him. In thinking back, I’ve come to realize he has done this so many times that the manipulating of other people is second nature, and I wonder if he even knows what truth is anymore. In a way, I feel sorry for him. He has brought a lot of grief into his life and to those who are around him, but he does not see this as a problem. He somehow sees himself as a victim of circumstances, but he created the circumstances that have led him to this point in his life.
Like I said, I’m working on forgiving him, but it isn’t easy. Part of me is still angry, and that is mostly directed at me for falling for this manipulation. I always thought I was smarter and could see through someone’s attempts at manipulating me, but I failed in this one. It hurt, quite a bit, and I think I am working more on forgiving myself than this person. He will eventually have to answer for using religion and God in his efforts to manipulate people.
Part of my problem in forgiving him is my own sin as well. I am well aware of this fault, so no bashing me on it.
This coming Friday is Good Friday. If you know nothing about this day, read this blog, because she explains it so well: http://faithfulprovisions.com/2012/04/04/what-is-good-friday/. Jesus Christ CHOSE to die for our sins in a most horrific manner, so that we would no longer be separated from God.
This coming Sunday is Easter, one of the most important days in Christianity. On Easter Sunday, a little over 2000 years ago, Jesus Christ, Son of God, rose from the dead. His mission was accomplished. He died, stayed dead for three days and rose again to return to home to Heaven after spending a little more time on earth. Jesus forgave us. He shed His precious blood for us so that we may live eternally in Heaven should we choose to believe in Him.
So, I’m working on forgiving myself and becoming less angry at this guy who is so steeped in sin that he cannot see how destructive he truly is. I’m sure it will take some time on my part, but I’m getting there and I will forgive him.
Psalm 32:1-3 (NASB)
32 How blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven,
Whose sin is covered!
2 How blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity,
And in whose spirit there is no deceit!
Whose sin is covered!
2 How blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity,
And in whose spirit there is no deceit!
3 When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away
Through my groaning all day long.
Through my groaning all day long.
Psalm 130:3-5 (NASB)
3 If You, Lord, should mark iniquities,
O Lord, who could stand?
4 But there is forgiveness with You,
O Lord, who could stand?
4 But there is forgiveness with You,
That You may be feared.
5 I wait for the Lord, my soul does wait,
And in His word do I hope
And in His word do I hope
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