Sojourner...

Psalm 39:12  (NASB)

¹² “Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear to my cry;
Do not be silent at my tears;
For I am a stranger with You,
A sojourner like all my fathers.

I love this verse. Honestly, I love the book of Psalms. I can find peace when I am troubled, reassurance when I am discouraged. I can find my Father’s comforting presence when I have strayed. This verse in particular reminds me to stop looking for answers, but to get so close to God that I don’t even need to ask the question. It is so hard for me to do that sometimes, but I struggle on. When I feel like God has forgotten my prayers, I turn back to the Word to find Him. Because it is I who has forgotten God in those times.

I think it might be time to look at my dating history. I’m not going to name any names, and I’m only going back about 10 years at the most. For me to do this, I want you readers to understand.. relationships are not one person doing all the work and causing all of the problems. I know I’ve been at fault many times when I have been dating someone. I’m just going to explain why and what happened. Some of these men I will mention I never actually “dated” in the sense of the word. They either expressed interest in me or vice versa, and I found things out that made me not want to get further involved. I will not clarify which is which either. I have… well, nicknames for them.. helps me to keep it straight.

Mr. Scared – this one has remained a good friend. We had major religious differences as well as the fact that he just could not commit.

Mr. Player – MAJOR commitment issues, in addition to the fact that he could just not make up his mind about anything. Absolutely drove me crazy. This one is not in my life in any capacity, as his drama and the games he played made him unbearable.

Mr. Desperate – this guy wouldn’t take a hint. I repeatedly told him I wasn’t interested in him but he just kept on trying. He got points for persistence, but that was about it. The fact that he just did not get it when I told him “I AM NOT INTERESTED IN YOU” clearly spoke volumes about his mental issues.

Mr. Psycho – oh boy.. where do I even start? After a mere four days of talking to him, he was convinced we were going to be married. Yes. Four days later. After hearing some seriously disturbing things from him (he had ZERO boundaries), I told him we should just be friends. He then sent several long emails detailing why I should change my mind, and actually asked if I “prayed about letting him go.” Well, I’ve already said God blessed me with discernment, so I’m pretty sure prayer about the crazy guy wouldn’t have done much good.

Mr. Nice Guy – no, nice guys don’t always finish last, but sometimes they just never get started. There was mutual interest, but he just never asked me out.

Mr. Smarty-Pants - J Like the name? Anyway, this one just thought I was too old for him. Nuff said.

Mr. Creepy – this guy had some nerve! He is that guy who has no morals or values, will cheat if you give him a chance and is just plain gross.

Mr. Distant – different religious beliefs, too much space in between. Cannot say enough nice things about this one though.

So, where do I go from here? Some of the guys on this list have many qualities I am looking for, but they didn't have ALL of the qualities I am looking for in one person. God wants me to wait on Him to bring my Mr. Perfect to me. Yes, yes, I know. THAT one won’t be perfect, but God has created him just for me, so he will be just right for me. And I for him. And I’m looking forward to that day. In the meantime, I’ll serve God and do what I can to further the kingdom.